You’re my bad habit baby, you’re my
You’re takin’ my soul down to the letter O
Can’t escape the way you got me locked out baby
I gotta break from you, break from you, break from you — Maxwell, Bad Habits
05:38, 14 Aug – Mr: How u baby
05:50, 14 Aug – Ms: Good thanks, still a little tired thou. U?
05:51, 14 Aug – Mr: Not bad wat u doing today?
05:53, 14 Aug – Ms: Going to work. Why?
05:54, 14 Aug – Mr: Wanted u to cum over
05:56, 14 Aug – Ms: And what wud we be doing?
05:56, 14 Aug – Mr: Lots y?
05:56, 14 Aug – Mr: Wat would u like to
05:57, 14 Aug – Ms: Just tryna figure out ur angle or what urges after.
05:57, 14 Aug – Mr: I want u
06:00, 14 Aug – Ms: For a couple of hours …. get in , get off, get out
06:00, 14 Aug – Mr: The whole day would be nice
06:01, 14 Aug – Mr: Who knows we might finally see wat happens
06:04, 14 Aug – Ms: Why now? Ur the one that bow’d out in the first place.
06:05, 14 Aug – Mr: I’m not here about the past I’m here for now, so what u say baby?
06:06, 14 Aug – Ms: Let me think about it. I’ll get back to you
06:06, 14 Aug – Mr: Lol reaLly
06:06, 14 Aug – Mr: When
06:10, 14 Aug – Ms: yes. Unlike u I just hv to decide if I can trust u 2 b true to ur word or if this will end the end the same way as the other attempts.
06:10, 14 Aug – Ms: By the end of the day or tom
06:12, 14 Aug – Mr: Look marcy I’m sorry bout wat happened I was not sure how to take the next step u know iv always wanted u and this has been goin on for to long I want u and I want u know I was gonna come pick u up and bring u to my place
17:35, 14 Aug – Ms: I’ve thought about it…and I’m just gonna be honest. I’m in a different head space then I was last year. I’m not looking for just sex or sexual exploration anymore. I’m an awesome woman with a lot going for me. I’m looking to date someone bad see where things go. I dnt do things half way but I want to take things slow. I don’t think I can give you what you “want”.
I’ve learned the hard way that If you don’t ask for what you want then how can you expect to get it? Its something people tend to take for granted without realising it.
I’ll lay it down one time through, gather round
Though this is a chore
So rich with lies, I prefer poor advice
And showed her the door
This is your goodbye kiss opportunity Thought you were burning me down
But I’m finally free
Can breathe, I can see
Think about the mess that you’re in
Some things I couldn’t see
What about the rest of you
Well, under my skin
But I can’t let you in
No you don’t see scars
That’s exactly what they are baby
You’re never gonna hurt me
If you miss me don’t
If I never wanna see you again I won’t
If you get an invitation I’m probably drunk You’re just as hot as radiation
But I’ll mend this situation — Gavin DeGraw, Radiation
Et Mr was like a sure thing for me for the longest time but I’ve taken off my rose tinted glasses. I tried so hard to over look the issues and push my doubts aside in an attempt to get what I thought I wanted – him. I’ve changed and I only realised how much when this situation presented it’s self. I leaving him behind with no regrets to speak of. Simply put, music and time are my greatest healers.
I have been listening to this obsessively and thought it was poetic. These are the last words that Frank Ocean sings in his song “Bad Religion.”
It’s a bad religion
To be in love with someone
Who could never love you I know
Only bad religion
Could have me feeling the way I do
Simple, effortless and poetic.

August 14, 2012
Categories: dating, guys, justsaying, love, thoughts . Tags: #Bad Religion, #Frank Ocean, Dreams . Author: blacksheeplost . Comments: Leave a Comment